Monday, January 21, 2008
Worship retreat on Friday and Saturday was great. Pastor Philip Huan was, as expected, good with his teaching, i guess partly because he has the experience of being in the worship team before. I really learnt quite a bit about the role of the worship team through the Levites, although there wasn't a lot of mention about dancers and how they can play a part. Still, it was definitely a learning experience. I think what struck me the most was how special the Levites actually were. I have read about the Levites before through a dance book that Aunty Patsy loaned to me and i knew they were specially chosen by God, but it never occured to me the extent of the importance of the Levites.
Apart from the teaching, the games were fun. Uncle Tat Jin's friend was hired to help run the thing, and i have to say, he is good at what he is doing. Not only did he use the games for bonding, but he also used them to link to the worship ministry, having been in it before. So he illustrated a few good points while we played. I really liked the blindfolded one, where he put Aunty Yeep on 'mc', to illustrate the fact that the leader may not always be around to guide the team. I think that's real great. All in all, it was a fun time.
The one thing about this 'camp' that really helped me was to find release, for those of you who know what i'm talking about. I never really wanted to tell anyone, and i still feel like hiding in the ground for suddenly blurting such stuff. What i must say is thank you, because the messages didn't just help me continue dancing, but they erased a lot of the negitivity that surrounded me. The other moment of releasing was during worship on Friday night, i actually cried quite badly, if anybody noticed the amount of tissue i used. Heh heh. So yup, thanks for the encouragement, written and said to me after i spilled everything. It's still going to be an uphill battle though for most part i've 'recovered', and i hope that no one apart from those in the room will know about this.
So my prayer at the moment is that I will overcome this problem. I know it's the work of the devil, and I know that God will help get me through this!
Oh Lord, keep my eyes trained on You, so that i will see what is good and holy. Please help me to recognise the encouragement and positive feedback i receive, and learn to accept them. But don't let me be proud because of them Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen
